arise: (mass effect ♥ integrity)
So I am still alive! As it turns out, a baby actually takes up a surprising amount of time. Here's some RL stuff. )

Yeah, that's honstly about it for real life. And in terms of video games, specifically DmC and WoW. )
arise: (fire emblem ♥ beach holiday mia)
Getting a chance to update is pretty hard. Not even because we're super busy, but I keep thinking of it only as I'm going to sleep or whatever. Thanks for everyone's well wishes :) Baby is just over two weeks old now. Her name's Alexandra, and she was born big and healthy. (Almost 4.2kg and 53cm, or in confusing-measurement terms, 9.2 pounds and 20.8 inches.) Labour was not too bad but it is not an experience I would recommend. Anasthesia is not nearly as reliable as I had been led to believe by others. We're settling in nicely now. Husband is on uni holidays and I can't go back to work yet, so we're spending most of our time nesting in the lounge. We have been marathoning The West Wing to the extent that leaving the theme music playing acts as a fairly reliable lullaby. Also playing a lot of Civilization, which is more or less what kept me sane in the hospital. (I did not so much sleep during my stay there as fall unconscious between turns.)

Honestly I think I'm becoming really really boring. Have a bit of random insomnia right now, but it's actually kinda nice being up alone; husband and baby sleeping in next room, so it's not like I'm missing anything. Fuck, I'm domestic.

Haven't played the ME3 extended cut yet, and will probably just yt the endings at some point. I don't have enough points on my multiplayer to get the good endings, and the reports about whether the multi prereqs have been changed are really contradictory, so I'm not getting my hopes up too high. I've been pretty disillusioned with the ending since I realised that 2/3 choices begin with the thesis "so Saren/TIM actually had a pretty good idea...". Also still bitter about Jacob and other mances getting so thoroughly shafted; didn't notice it on the first playthrough because I'd Liaramanced. I still like Liaramance best, but it sucks no-one else got what they wanted.

But hey, BioWare endings, never that good. One of my favourite things about finishing any BioWare game is watching husband rage over the ending even though he didn't play the game in question. I think he was more pissed about the ME3 ending than I was.

uhhh long entry is long so I'll just finish it with; watched him play Lollipop Chainsaw. Somewhat conflicted about it on a gender studies level, but it didn't look like that enjoyable a game, so I guess that's that. Gotta give Suda51 props for style, though. Next game I'm looking out for is Sleeping Dogs because idk I must have all sandbox crime games, even if it takes me forever to play them. (Still going on Mafia II ffs.)
arise: (gundam seed ♥ athha approved)
Baby is here and home. She's beautiful. :)
arise: (dead rising ♥ no shoplifters)
Baby is officially three days late. Have been going a bit mad with impatience, but today had induction scheduled for next Friday. I'll be in hospital from next Thursday, but hopefully the whole business can be averted by the baby showing up herself. Kinda over all the excitement. This site about sums it up. Not that I blame people for being excited, it's just... draining. It's all anyone really talks to us about any more, even family and friends, I'm physically in pain almost all the time, and late pregnancy mood swings are fucking disconcerting on a level I've never experienced before. Seriously, this is not just "I am mopier than usual" or "dawwww cute baby", it's "I am euphoric/in a fugue for no reason whatsoever, and knowing this does not empower me to change it at all". It's disturbing and, I guess to a certain extent, an insight into difficulties other people face every day. At the risk of being Captain Obvious, it's amazing what one takes for granted.

Anyway. Been playing Dead Rising 2: Off The Record while husband plays DR2 classic. It's been an interesting comparison so far. I'd forgotten how many little improvements are in OTR, like freezing the screen to check the Scoops. I'm in a sad place right now where, aside from Lollipop Chainsaw, there really aren't any games I'm looking forward to for quite awhile. Resident Evil 6 is probably the next one; while I like watching Assassin's Creed, it's firmly husband's thing and not mine. (In the same way that Bioware games in general are my thing. I'm... not sure whether I got the raw end of that deal or not.)

That probably makes me look like some kind of zombie maniac, but it's more that releases I'm interested in are pretty thin on the ground. I'll pick up the new Devil May Cry game (which part isn't capitalised again?) because I'm a glutton for punishment, but I'll try and not get it at launch at least. Unless the demo is insanely good or something. This is not just because of the aesthetically-displeasing redesign, but also because DMC4 was a pretty huge disappointment, and I am really sick of picking up sequels at launch and hating them. Why hello there, FFXIII-2. Was it half an hour I played of you? Felt like longer, but... idk. Maybe I'm just a big grump.
arise: (final fantasy ♥ kitten is angry)
Tried to play Dragon Age 2, with the intention of playing a male Hawke for once. Got so frustrated with the inability to make a mildly attractive male under the age of 45* that I just gave up. D:

*It's ironic since I actually often like making older characters, but dude looks older than his mother. D:

Baby due tomorrow. Apparently 5% of babies arrive on their due date. Doctor thinks it'll be a few days yet because she's only partially engaged atm. Have decided to tempt fate tomorrow by going out to have lunch with my dad. I may regret this.
arise: (avengers ♥  a soldier)
A whole lot of talk about babies. )

On a completely different and much sillier note, about six months ago I bought a new copy of Dead Rising to replace my old one, which suffered the "lent to friend I don't see any more" fate. Went to play it yesterday - turns out the copy is NTSC. I don't even know where I bought it, let alone have a receipt, and one of the three candidates has since closed down. So now I'm still down a copy of Dead Rising and I've got an NTSC version. Don't suppose anyone wants it? Don't even worry about paying postage, it's useless to me anyway.

Edit: There's also a copy of Disgaea 3 for PS3, same story.
arise: (mass effect ♥ mordin does not approve)
at some point today, i ceased being ami and became THE PREGNANCY HORMONE MONSTER FROM OUTER SPAAAACE x_x

on the bright side, 38 weeks tomorrow. hurry up and be born!
arise: (final fantasy ♥ the new regime)
Husband and I have been doing a Saints Row retrospective and it has made me very reflective and thoughtful. I had a long and involved dream last night about waking up back in time and fixing various past mistakes. Woke up feeling a lot better about some things that happened in the past than I have in a long time, so that's nice.

(Saints Row might sound like a weird thing to spark such sober self-reflection, but 2 is more or less the game we bonded over shortly after beginning to go out, and thus carries an improbably high emotional weight as it's always been 'our' thing. Also it's fucking awesome.)

Woke up feeling pretty good and energetic today. Am paranoid this means labour is imminent, as it is apparently preceded by a burst of energy. Which, for me, being able to wander around the house qualifies as. I guess it'll happen when it happens.
arise: (mass effect ♥ integrity)
We set up the cot today, now that everyone is over the great Gastro Plague of '12. Pregnancy has basically been a series of "wow, this is real" waves, and having a fully functioning cot sitting in the bedroom just waiting for a baby is another one. My mother also delightedly informed me that 36 weeks was when she went into labour with me, so there's that to consider. Being pregnant has also gotten to a fever pitch of being incredibly fucking uncomfortable, so there's that. I barely have the energy to do anything, and moving too fast/in the wrong way/in a way that displeases some capricious god causes pain in my poor over-extended stomach muscles. A lot of this is probably being exacerbated by the fibro, but it's also just pregnancy classic.

idk, part of me feels like I must be really unprepared, though. I've been reading pregnancy books and trying to take them seriously, but so much of it feels so... pointless. Like birth plans. I don't think there's anything inherently wrong with wanting to have twenty scented candles lit and Enya playing and all that, but it's hard to get that worked up about it. Maybe I just have a more resigned attitude when it comes to medical professionals. All I really care about is them doing their jobs as quickly and efficiently as possible so we can all get out of there in one piece. The only thing I feel even remotely strongly about is not wanting a c-section, and that's just because I don't want to be stuck in hospital any longer than I have to be.

Ah well. I'm just going to try and enjoy the time I've got left before things change forever etc. etc.. It's a strange feeling now, because I am just waiting, and I'm both excited and apprehensive at the same time. I want it to happen quickly, but I also want the last few days or weeks to last as long as they can. The only thing I can even slightly compare with is waiting for school or uni to start again in the last few days of break, but... obviously it's a lot longer than just a semester.
arise: (mass effect ♥ bullshit.)
gastro during pregnancy is really, really unfair. haven't my internal organs been abused enough already?

just throwing that out there, universe.
arise: (final fantasy ♥ free agan)
Have been a bit remiss in updating; no real reason, rl hasn't gotten particularly busy or anything. The most preoccupying thing has been joint pain, but there's really nothing that can be done about it until the baby's born. (Speaking of which, her dd is five weeks from today. Crazy shit.)

Have been playing Catherine with husband. (Watching him play, more specifically.) It is definitely an amusing game to play with your SO; it asks you all these questions about relationships as you progress, and it can be pretty funny answering them. The two funniest disagreements so far were one about what's more cheating, and one about which C/Katherine we preferred. (I'm Team C, ftr.) Though at this point they both seem pretty psychotic in their own ways, so. *shrug*

I'm currently on the lookout for a game to play. ME1's gameplay is just too terrible, and I couldn't get into Xenoblade Chronicles once I realised that everything I liked about it was just stuff I liked about World of Warcraft but with a worse interface. I bought The Witcher 2, but unmedicated my hands are way too shaky to play properly. Which is probably also the problem with ME1. I'm hoping to go back to it once I can get things under control, but right now, it is just not happening. It's just too frustrating.

Husband was fooling around with Banjo-Kazooie: Nuts and Bolts the other day. (He didn't like it.) Kinda makes me feel like an old N64 platformer. I'd really like to play Mario 64, but for some reason or another navigating the Wii Shop with our internet connection is a living hell. I've got the original Banjo-Kazooie game on Live, though, so maybe I'll just play that.
arise: (gundam seed ♥ the choices you make)
Been having a pretty hard time with joint pain lately. It's gotten to the point where most nights I wake up at least once or twice from the pain, and I usually need to be helped up/down. It's hard to go out anywhere, either - even walking through the house is exhausting. It's just frustrating not being able to take any medication for it. :/ Esp with also not being able to take sleeping meds.

On the bright side, only a few more weeks to go.
arise: (dragon age ♥ thoughtful fenris)
Fire Emblem no resets playthrough came to an ignominous end because we reset a lot during the Dawn Brigade chapters. XD;; It was about at the point when husband lost Edward, Leonardo and Nolan on, like, the fourth level, so... yeah, saving future misery. So now it's "no resets unless we really really really have to"! Fun is more important, anyway.

I've got a weird task ahead of me this week - going through my father's stuff. He's back from his field work now, and has decided to divest himself of most of his earthly possessions. For some people this might be a cause for concern - for my dad, who's a total hoarder, it's great. What that means for me, though, is that I've got to go around to his place and pick through his stuff for anything I want before he chucks it away. It's not bad, but it is weird. He still lives in the same house where I spent most of my teenage years, even though my mother and I are both gone, so most of the stuff there is filled with memories. Even being there feels awkward a lot of the time, let alone considering things.

There's also the fact that I'm pretty much an anti-hoarder, so much of it cosists of him trying to stress how emotionally significant something is and me not really caring about my class photos of Primary School #6 that I hated anyway. I guess it feels like going through a dead relative's things, except thankfully no-one's passed away. It's still awkward and uncomfortable, though. I took everything that was mine from there when I moved out. All I'm taking now is various knick-knacks belonging to my parents that I've always liked, which does not number very many. (He showed me a storage room; I left with a small milk crate.)

Still, if it's awkward for me, I can't imagine how weird it is for my mum. Honestly, I'd rather get it over with as soon as possible - I'd go tomorrow if I could, since I know it'll only take me an hour or two. But she can't get over there until Saturday, and I don't want to leave her to have to do her part of it by herself. Especially since her part will take so much longer.

Time does march on, I suppose. Perhaps it'll be cathartic.
arise: (haruhi suzumiya ♥ open-minded)
Given that the movie of it is apparently A Big Deal, I went out today and tried to buy the first book of The Hunger Games, because I like to be up on what all the hip young kids are into and so forth. In what was genuinely a pretty cool twist, the bookstore I went to at the local mall was sold out of it, which was actually really nice to see. It's a pleasant thought that best-selling books can still be sold out in this day and age; it offsets the whole 'bookstores closing everywhere' doom and gloom. /cool story bro

It's been somewhat of an effort thanks to EA servers being crappy, but I've finally managed to set up Mass Effect 3. It's annoying, since it takes about two to three minutes just to load up the damn start screen, and I haven't actually gotten a chance to play yet. Sat down at about 1pm thinking "oh yay, everyone's out, time for a few hours with Shepard!". Turned out to be a few hours trying to load the Collector's Edition DLC and wrangling the constantly timing out EA servers. Bleh. Maybe tomorrow?

Practically no-one on my friends list is actually in Melbourne, but if you are or happen to be in the next couple of weeks, you should check this out. The person who runs it is actually my father-in-law, and it's a really fun show!

big baby!

Mar. 29th, 2012 10:08 pm
arise: (code geass ♥ divided by zero)
Had an appointment at the hospital today! Didn't learn much, except that apparently baby is a bit bigger than average, so yay for that. (It explains my beachball tummy, at least!) And then went baby-shopping with husband/mum/bf, so yeah today was a day of babies. I'm feeling pretty positive about it all, though it's hard to believe it's only ten weeks away. I'm going pretty heavily into nesting mode, characterised chiefly by buying a whole bunch of furniture at Ikea and nagging husband to assemble it. 8D

Have just started playing RD for no-resets run - on Normal mode, as you recommended [personal profile] amielleon. Only just started the first level, so no trends to report yet. For PoR, we made it to endgame with only a couple more losses - Rhys and Rolf in 28, and then Marcia and Stefan in endgame. Had a surprisingly successful time using Largo as a pinch-hit in Endgame!

Still haven't started Mass Effect 3, but may do so tonight if I feel up to it. Every time I try, it won't let me connect to the Origin servers :/ I'm playing on 360, but I need to dl all the stuff I got with the Collector's Edition. Once I do get it working, I'm planning to play pretty solidly.
arise: (haruhi suzumiya ♥ cool edition)
I deferred from my uni course today. In some ways, it was a snap decision, but I've been worried about my ability to continue for awhile. Besides, now I can wait for the results from my first degree to come through, and look at a few different Masters programs. Or even take some extra time and do post-grad for my BA. Either way, it's nice not to feel like I'm working to such a deadline. I feel kinda bad, like I've given up, but it's really the most sensible option right now.

I'm honestly a bit worried about my physical state, though. idk, I feel so drained all the time, I keep getting random hot flushes and dizziness, blurred/black spots in vision, weird symptoms like that. I've got a hospital appointment on Thursday, so I guess I'll get it checked out then.

In FE playthrough news, sadly lost Mia in Chapter 24, and Boyd just now in Chapter 26, both to freak criticals. Such is life, I suppose. We're almost there! Our Rhys is seriously fantastic - I've never had much luck with him before, but this Rhys turned out pretty amazing.

Going to start on Mass Effect 3 soon, given that I don't have much else to do with my time. Should be fun! :D
arise: (fire emblem ♥ bright heart)
Going okayish on earlier-mentioned bullshit assignment. Higher education is such a pain sometimes. The whole process is weirdly cathartic, actually - we have to analyse a life transition, and I'm doing the early stages of my pregnancy.

My pregnancy which is coming to an end worryingly soon. It's hard to believe that the baby's due in ten weeks. I've gotten so used to being pregnant that the idea of not being pregnant, let alone having a baby to look after, is bizarre. It feels like so much more time has passed, but really, we've only known about the baby proper for about five months. Ah well.

Inspired by [personal profile] amielleon, husband and I have started a tag team no resets Hard runthrough of FE9/10. Well, almost no-resets - it's only his second time playing, so in order to convince him that this was not AN IMPOSSIBLE CHALLENGE, we agreed to each pick a champion (I picked Soren, he picked Gatrie) and to reset each chapter if they die, and also if Ike dies/we hit a lose condition. Fortunately we've only had one such incident so far, and that was neither of us being aware that Naesala's ravens can and will claim the sieze point on the ship level where you get Astrid. We've lost three units so far - husband lost Shinon way back in chapter 7 and Titania in chapter 9, and I stupidly lost Mist in Chapter 12 when I messed up the raven blockade formation. It's been a lot of fun so far! He's playing through Chapter 16 as we speak.

Have banned self from Mass Effect 3 until this assignment is done. Must. Finish. Assignment. At this pont, it's just become a matter of determination to know what all the drama is about!
arise: (dragon age ♥ thoughtful fenris)
First off, thanks for all the congratulations re the wedding ♥ It was a great day, will upload some pics once we've gotten them off sister-in-law who was the photographer.

Been a bit sick over the last few days, which is unfortunate, but better now than during the wedding! (Well, it was coming on during then, but eh.) Unfortunately it's meant that I've missed a bunch of classes, which is really annoying as I was already behind. But eh, it's the kind of can-barely-even-stand sickness, so it's not like it could've been any other way. Last night was insanely bad, so I'm hoping that at least that was the fever breaking and I'm on the mend today.

Unfortunately have been too sick to play Mass Effect 2, let alone start on 3, which is a huge shame because all of the hype backlash re the ending has made me REALLY CURIOUS. Is it a case of ridiculously entitled fanbase, or an amazingly crappy ending? I MUST KNOW. (I'm thinking ridiculously entitled fanbase, though. BioWare are by no means perfect, but their base is so absurdly broken.)

The one good thing about being sick is that I've missed the annual Melbourne Grand Prix debate. idek.

Mar. 19th, 2012 08:30 am
arise: (doctor who ♥ wonderful world)
Got married on Saturday, so that's pretty awesome. Everything went off without a hitch. Got a new surname to get used to! ♥
arise: (final fantasy ♥ secrets)
Today was a day of good news and bad news! The bad news first, since I like to end on a happy note. I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but since August, I've been taking sleeping medication to help with my insomnia. It's been amazing and basically transformed my life, wish I'd discovered it years ago, etc.. Unfortunately, the medication I'm taking is also technically an anti-depressant, specifically a downer. That's never really affected me because I take it for insomnia, so I'm asleep during the actual downer effects most of the time - I've been awake for it sometimes, but not much. Being a downer, it actually has some pretty nasty side-effects. I've never had the side-effects before, and I've been taking it for months.

Unfortunately, in the last week or so, that's changed. I've spontaneously started falling into a fugue-like state, losing time, having... well, dark thoughts is the best way I can describe it, but in a completely emotionally detached manner. Like, I'll sit down for a few minutes and then suddenly find that it's half an hour later, or, as happened today, I'll suddenly find that I've walked out of a room full of people I was talking to and am halfway across the university with no idea when or why that happened. My theory is that the medication isn't processing through my system as quickly as it should because of some kind of third-trimester change, so I'm feeling the downer effects long after the sedative (and, indeed, the eight hours of sleep) is done. Either way, though, it means that I'll have to stop, or at least cut down on, the medication for at least a little while, and that truly is a miserable thought. It can't be helped, as insomnia is way preferrable to this, but it's a real pain. :(

The good news, however, is that apparently my university enrolment was screwed up! Normally this would be a bad thing, but in this case, they screwed it up by enrolling me in first year when I should've been skipped straight to second year! So, starting next week, I'll be attending a whole bevy of new subjects, and have credit for an entire year knocked off. I'm thrilled, needless to say. The idea of suddenly cutting to second year is a bit daunting, but hey, I've done it once, I can do it again! I do have a whole new timetable to learn, though, and new books to buy! (And the old ones were so expensive...)

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